just some thoughts.

I've been thinking a lot lately... because I have a lot of time to do things like that, ha.

Anyway as the beginning of August approached I started thinking about what my life would be like if I hadn't had a miscarriage.  We would have a little baby, or would be having one any day. I thought when this time came around it would be really, really hard- but gratefully it hasn't.  I know it might sound weird but I'm really grateful for all the trials (not just this one) that I have gone through.  Austin and I's relationship became a lot deeper and stronger.  After the miscarriage I began training for another marathon- about 4 weeks into my training I was on a 9 mile run and at about mile 8 all of a sudden my foot just cramped and ached with pain.  I tried to ignore the pain and finished my run. Long story short I kept trying to train but every time my foot would just ache.  After a lot of persuasion from the parentals and Austin I went to the doctor- sure enough I had fractured my foot. The doctor told me I couldn't run for 8 weeks! I was seriously miserable- I had just lost my baby then was told that I couldn't run (my therapy, stress relief, mind clearer etc.).  I prayed harder during that time than I had for a long time.  During this 8 weeks of no running I found out I was pregnant again.  Austin and I couldn't help but think that maybe I fractured my foot for a reason. So I researched a lot about getting pregnant after a miscarriage and every where I read said you should wait like 6 months or you have an increased risk of having another miscarriage... so now I'm 31 weeks along and I pray every day our little miracle baby will be healthy and she is!  I'm so, so grateful that she will be here soon.  I'm nervous to be a mother! but I know with divine help I can do anything :)